LOVE vs. don't love

These past few weeks I have been thinking a lot about things that make me happy and how blessed I am. Of course with all the good there are some things that I wish I could change but I guess those things are there to help us to appreciate the good things. Here is what has been on my mind...

Things that I LOVE <3      
                                             
1. Spending time with Blake. Honestly, I take every second I can get with him and I try to cherish it (ok that might seem a little over the top) but seriously, I just love being with him. My favorite part to any day is getting in bed and just talking (until Blake falls asleep which somethings is in like 2 minutes because he is so tired but I take what I can get.)

2. Feeling the baby move. Seriously, one of the coolest things I have ever experienced. Even though I have felt him move for a couple of weeks now, it still never gets old. I love to just sit and watch my belly move and it never fails to put a smile on my face. Oh look, there he is kicking right now. He must know that I am talking about him.

3. Taking long, hot showers. I don't know why but this has become something that I look forward to everyday. Most days I take 2 showers just because I love it so much. I could honestly just sit there for 30 minutes and be completely happy.

4. Being able to exercise. I realize how much I took working out for granted before because over the past couple of months it has become a lot more difficult for me to do but I still love it. If I miss a day, I feel totally out of wack. I am so glad that I am still able to at least jog even though this belly is making it a little bit more difficult. I definitely do a lot more walking now but sometimes I still like to jog just to know that I still can :)

5. Being an aunt. I honestly love just hanging out with my nieces and nephews. They are all so different but so much fun to be with. They never fail to put a smile on my face.

6. Being with family. This is a given but I feel so lucky to have such an awesome family.

7. Reading a good book. I think this year alone I have read more books than I have ever read before...and I love it! Getting lost in a book is one of the best things ever. Some good ones I have read recently... The Help, Matched, The Secret Life of Bees, The Host, A Thousand Splendid Suns. The Five People You Meet in Heaven, Lemon Tart. So those are just a few from the top of my head. There are so many more.

Things I don't love....

1. Blake's work hours. Don't get me wrong, I am SO GRATEFUL that Blake has a good, stable job but he is always gone and his commute is miserable. He sometimes has to work Saturday's which is usually our one day to hang out and get stuff done. I try not to complain but can't a girl want to hang out with her husband. I guess that is a good thing right?

2. Not being able to sleep.  Getting a full night of good sleep has taken on a whole other meaning to me.  I lay in bed just wishing I could sleep on my stomach meanwhile tossing and turning from side to side because my body is so sore from not being about to get comfortable.   I have to admit that I try to sleep on my back for a little bit to give my sides a rest but then I start to go numb so I have to turn back over. I can't wait for that first night when I can sleep on my stomach again. It will be a beautiful night. The plus, however, is that I blog early in the morning..meaning 4 am.  haha Since I can't sleep, I might as well get something done right.

3. Not being able to play soccer.  I didn't realize how much I missed it until I went to my cousin Tahna's soccer game a few weeks ago.  I wanted to be out there so bad!  Whenever I see a ball lying around I still try to juggle but it isn't the same. (cool but totally random..my uterus is now the size of a soccer ball!) And of course I miss all the girls on the BYU team.  Once you move away is it hard to keep in touch as well as you would like but that's not to say I don't miss them all like crazy.

4. Not fitting into clothes. So I feel like I have been in this awkward stage of pregnancy for quite some time now and I just can't get out of it. I still fit into a lot of my pre-pregnancy clothes but they are quite snug on me. Let's just say my shirts are quite form fitting. However, when I wear maternity shirts, they make me look like an oompa loompa. Seriously. Not flattering at all. And when I do wear them, I get blamed for trying to camouflage my belly. Really, I'm not trying to hide it anymore, I know it's there and it isn't going to get any smaller. I'm just trying to wear a shirt that fits ok.

5. Losing my mind. Sometimes I feel like I have lost it.  I can't tell you how many times I have forgotten where I put my phone and I am searching for several minutes before I realize it's in my pocket. I am hoping I can blame this on pregnancy.... if you haven't noticed, I like to blame everything on being pregnant because that means I have an excuse.